It only took me about 4 years to dive in. This whole blogging thing. I’m more of a vlogger. The truth is I love to write, I guess it’s rare for me to think that I have anything interesting to say. My jokes can be funny by the time the noon class starts, but thats because I’ve had 3 audiences to test on first. Usually I’m pretty tired by that time, and also hangry, so maybe only I think I am funny. Anyway, since I’ve handed the newsletter off to my team (Thanks Zoe and Lindsay), I still wanted to give myself a voice on here, and it is going to happen weekly. My goal will be to talk things fitness, some serious, some not so serious. The slant will be my experience in the industry and our little corner of the universe, at CrossFit LoDo.
I figured this first one is a good one, mostly because it really reflects my own Jack Handy deep thoughts on this whole thing. I love providing a space for you to workout, and a place for community to grow. So, I ask:
I’ve had a really rough time with my CrossFitting and my general fitness for several months. Maybe I did it to myself. Scratch that, I definitely did it to myself. This winter, at the ripe age of 34, I decided to dive deep into snowboarding and got wrangled into playing some basketball in a recreational league. I was flying pretty high. Well, i guess all things are relative, I was jumping hopefully a foot or so off the ground while hooping, and for snowboarding well I suck so there was no flying there. But what I mean is my “Why fitness” made sense. I could CrossFit, moderately well for a kid too tall and skinny and rickety, all while still doing things like randomly hopping into other things that are fun or I prior to falling all the way down the mountain and ending up on the wrong side of Keystone I deem fun in the moment.
See that was and is my “Why fitness?” I have no delusions of going to the games as a master like Chance, or lifting 350 over my head like Joey. I just want to always be able to say yes to doing stuff. So when I tweaked my knee (I’m not even sure I know the first moment) everything in the gym has been really hard for me. I couldn’t really squat. If i warmed up a lot I could, but a long car ride or plane ride, or even a movie would suck because my knee would throb in its flexed position. my first squat of the day demoing with the 5:30 class felt like I was ripping a steak apart. So, I had to step back, and rest. Even that didn’t work, I still hurt, and so I went to a PT. What he showed me made me reevaluate my “Why.” What I found is it hadn’t changed, so then I had to answer “what am I missing to not get what I want out of all this hard work?” Because CrossFit and being fit isn’t easy, or everyone would do it.
I realized how much for granted I have and continue to take my body. I’ve been an athlete (if you consider golfers athletes, maybe we will do an instagram poll on that soon ok Zoe?) my whole life. I’ve never missed anything due to injury. That isn’t to say things haven’t hurt, or I haven’t had things come up. But I’ve never been OUT or out for so long it was memorable. Even this is but a gentle reminder that “hey man, this body is a gift. It is your tool to doing this whole living thing.” And what my body needs is more attention to the little things. More recovery, more activation. More small movements so when I asked to load it with weight or volume it could be no problem, not a big problem.
Of course I know this, really all the reassurance I need from a PT is even with all this pain nothing is getting worse. Which it wasn’t, all the big things, ligaments, tendons, meniscus, are fine. There isn’t an injury other than pain. Which is hard for non athletes and non CrossFitters to understand. Really it doesn’t make a lot of sense, but the body is smart. It more or less is telling me if I don’t cool it I WILL actually hurt myself. So its slowing me down. Well, option 1 is slowing down. Resting. Its not a bad option, however it won’t fix the underlying issue. Resting won’t make a new hip work, moving and moving well will. So, Option 2 is What even fewer understand and what I had forgotten is the next step, which is making the pain better.
For me, and I would venture to guess for 90% of all small nagging type injuries there are, it takes an understanding that movement heals. Specific, strengthening movement. I was so weak around my knees that all the wear and tear just made the joint mad. Further, it was going to stay mad until i made it stronger. I hadn’t paid attention to the small fine movements that make the big movements not only easier, but at their base made those complex movements even possible.
So I’m back to a lot of single leg box squats, single leg deadlifts, box squats, squat therapy. Being able to do cool stuff until I’m 35 or 55 or 85 is not easy. Thus I have to earn it, just like anything worthwhile in life. Sure I’d like to just come in and lift and metcon and go home, and maybe there will be days soon I can and not even think about it. But I have to earn that. And I will, after all, its my “Why?”
I’d say I’m about 85% back, and have found some loving of the small albeit frustrating process of getting back to full speed. You’ll see me on SugarWOD soon, I promise.
Two takeaways this week, first is, if you are hurt, or something is hurting, listen to your body. Chances are rest is good, but something specific and focused along with smart recovery is better.
The other is know your “Why. If you are not motivated or not seeing the results or not feeling great, I challenge you to evaluate and know your “Why?” as your first step. All is possible with direction, consistency, and intent. “Why?” makes all three easy